pain.
dissapointment

I feel like I dont want to let any one close to me because [I don't have any thing to give to them] and
that means they will never want to stay friends with me.

I take from them and then they leave. Because I get too draining.

I hate feeling alone. Really.
But God I know I am not alone. You are with me. You rod and your staff they comfort me. You stick closer than a brother.
I don't have to fear my age.
I don't have to fear loneliness.